Dear you,
None of this matters in the long run. None. Of. It. Screw finals, and studying, and people who are so fucking gifted at every goddamn school subject. I am so done. Sorry I'm so bitter, but seriously why the hell do we waste our precious lives inside of schools that strip you from yourself and jam your mind with worthless crap; for instance ladies and gents, PHYSICS! WHY THE HELL WERE YOU INVENTED? I look at you and want to weep, I dont understand any of it and I don't plan on trying to get any of it because what good is it for me and, and how will it help me pursue acting...? hmmm yeah.
I love to learn, dont get me wrong, but I hate learning this shit. Gaaaaaaaqqqwlsdkjahsflkjahfl. Oh and to add to my frustration, there's my mother, the fucking spawn of satan. She is so selfish and immature it's actually hilarious, she is literally a teenager, so damn dramatic about everything. Soo today I got pissed at her, because she was being crazy and obnoxious about finals, and after she had fun screaming at me, she goes into or pantry and pours her self, up to the rim, a glass of wine. Like I can hear it just chugging around in the bottle, spewing into her glass. She has been drinking so much lately, and wait.. I thought she stopped drinking three years ago, hm. Anyway, she pours her drink and goes stomping off all pissy like a stupid princess and slams herself into the den. I got up and threw all the wine in the garbage. BEST part is when she goes, "wah wah wah Emily you threw out all the wine wah wah, bitch bitch moan moan". Yeaaaaah you crazy drunk. Go to bed.
I'M SUCH A BITCH RIGHT NOW AND I DONT CARE.
Im reallllllly not in the lovin' mood, butI love you.
