Crisp apples.

Dear you,
My new thing is refrigerating apples and then snaking on them throughout the day. I also got a new cell phone (finally) that makes me feel cooler. So, I do not get the concept that every sunday has to make you feel like shit.. the closure to the week is so dreary; the week is officially coming to an end, and tomorrow begins 7 new, mysterious days. I dont get this tradition, but I don't really plan on thinking about it too much, I got my cold apple to chew on and my fuckin sweet phone to play with. Hung out with Andrew last night, and speaking of traditions, we always end up doing the same thing: Drive around, talk, eat at sharis, listen to music. I'm not saying that it's not fun, but haha I wish we were able to think outside of the box. BUT I like what we do together, so I hope to stick to our usual whenever we hang. Anyway we decided to pre-game Where the Wild Things Are, but we ended up going into Paranormal Activity, which was a JOKE and not scary what-so-ever. I did get a good laugh out of it, but I was bummed I wasted my precious money on that shit, when I could've been watching a longer, probably more entertaining film. I had a freaky dream last night. I'm always dreaming of you know who, and it makes it harder, but I love when I do because ahhh I love you know who. Bleh. Stupid sundays.
NME returns today! I cannot wait to see those beautiful men of 2011.
I love you lots.

I hate waiting for nail polish to dry.

Dear you,
My nails are a vibrant green now. I thought I would spice it up. Not a whole lot happened today, went to school, came home, napped, wrote a paper, and worked out while at the same time reading. I began my day with michael buble's new song, then some old school 90's.. BBmac anyone? Turned my encounter app in, I'm going on OWE, I really cannot wait. OH, I read the new post secrets last night, and they aren't very uplifting, haha. I want to start my own post secret with the school or something, and have people give me their own secrets on a notecard, with or without their name. I don't care how you give it to me, but I would loooove that. I'm rather trustworthy, but I want to become stronger in that area, and I believe this will help.
I'm off to read some New Moon sweet thang, catch ya later. I love you.


Don't stop, never give up, hold your head high, and reach the top, let the world see what you have got, bring it on back to you! (Some wise words brought to you by S Cluuuuuuub ).

Come fly with me!

Dear you,
Oh you. Back to school and already under pressure. Writing an essay here, and reading a chem textbook there. Chemistry.. really? Anyway I'm ready for the difficult junior year, really am, BRRRRIINNNG IT ON J HIGH! I'm also ready for some change, and I have a clean slate and I'm feeling a change, a good one though, and not too drastic. I came home last night, got into a big sweat shirt and watched disturbia with my mom in her bed. (My dad has been sleeping in my bros room because he snores big time.) I cried in her arms while Shia was hacking away at the creepy bad guy neighbor. Just trying to mend a teenager's broken heart.. aw shoot. I woke up numb, and I hid away stuff that reminded me of the damn boy. I will get over it in time, because time heals. Didn't do much today, just procrastinated from doing the stupid summer reading essay, my fingers were not quite ready to pound out some B.S. essay on a book I almost finished. Huh. I ate a delish meal with the family and some family pals and then went upstairs while my baby brother was taking a bath and cried into my daddy's chest. My father is so wise, and so freaking right about everything. My sobs quickly turned into chuckles, because matt (my brother) was singing the cutest song, and he was whistling.. that kid will become a professional whistler swear to god. I've been reading New Moon for the second time, Im officially on Team Jacob.
How was your day?? I love you.

It's been a long, a long time coming
But I know a change gonna come, oh yes it will

bam.

Excuse my french.

Dear you,
None of this matters in the long run. None. Of. It. Screw finals, and studying, and people who are so fucking gifted at every goddamn school subject. I am so done. Sorry I'm so bitter, but seriously why the hell do we waste our precious lives inside of schools that strip you from yourself and jam your mind with worthless crap; for instance ladies and gents, PHYSICS! WHY THE HELL WERE YOU INVENTED? I look at you and want to weep, I dont understand any of it and I don't plan on trying to get any of it because what good is it for me and, and how will it help me pursue acting...? hmmm yeah.
I love to learn, dont get me wrong, but I hate learning this shit. Gaaaaaaaqqqwlsdkjahsflkjahfl. Oh and to add to my frustration, there's my mother, the fucking spawn of satan. She is so selfish and immature it's actually hilarious, she is literally a teenager, so damn dramatic about everything. Soo today I got pissed at her, because she was being crazy and obnoxious about finals, and after she had fun screaming at me, she goes into or pantry and pours her self, up to the rim, a glass of wine. Like I can hear it just chugging around in the bottle, spewing into her glass. She has been drinking so much lately, and wait.. I thought she stopped drinking three years ago, hm. Anyway, she pours her drink and goes stomping off all pissy like a stupid princess and slams herself into the den. I got up and threw all the wine in the garbage. BEST part is when she goes, "wah wah wah Emily you threw out all the wine wah wah, bitch bitch moan moan". Yeaaaaah you crazy drunk. Go to bed.


I'M SUCH A BITCH RIGHT NOW AND I DONT CARE.
Im reallllllly not in the lovin' mood, butI love you.

I took a nap today. That's about it.

A
- Available: I think
- Age: 16
- Annoyance: not getting enough sleep and this damn cold.
- Animal: elephants, of course

B
- Beer: ick
- Birthday: errrr day
- Best Friend(s): Christina, colleen, jake, thomas, andrew, ali, dominic, annie

- Blind or Deaf: well if I was blind I couldn't possibly be doing this! you silly survey thing!
- Best weather: sun sun sun
- Been in Love: I think I have
- Believe in Magic: certainly
- Believe in Santa: nope

C
- Candy: chocolate covered pretzels, skittles, and twix
- Color: lately black and minty green

- Chocolate/Vanilla: chocolate, I mean let's be serious

- Chinese/Mexican Food: mexicano

- Cake or pie: CAKE, ah

- Continent to visit: central america.. wooh

- Cheese: parm and bleu
D
- Day or Night: night
- Dancing in the rain: a little too epic for me. BUT YES.
E
- Eyes: I like all colors, I have green eyes

- Everyone's got: sass and class
- Ever failed a class: naaw

F
- First thoughts waking up: I dont really think much in the morning

- Food: !@@$!!#$!#$!%! what my life revolves around

G
- Greatest Fear: losing people, adults when they are pissed

- Goals: to not fuck up too much

- Gum: trident all the way

- Get along with your parents: yesssnooo

H
- Hair Color: im a brunette
- Height: 5’4
- Happy: WHY yes

- Holiday: Christmas and halloween
- How do you want to die: samurai battle

I
- Ice Cream: tillamook udderly chocolate with peanut butter
- Instrument: piano, like two chords on the guitar and I sing
J

-Jewelry: nipple rings and stuff like that

- Job: best baby sitter ever!

K
- Kids: I love kids so much

- Kickboxing or karate: karate
-Keep a journal: this blog thing here

L
- Love: everyone.
- Laughed so hard you cried: durrrr

M
- Milk flavor: chocolate

- Movies: scary or funny or homemade mmm
- Motion sickness: nope
- McD’s or BK: ewww
N
- Number: haha

O
- One wish: to not grow up

P
- Pepsi/Coke: I hate soda
- Perfect Pizza: my daddy's
- Piercings: My ears

Q
- Quail: like the animal??.. wait, what?

R
- Reality T.V.: americas next top model.. of ALL countries
- Radio Station: burnt cds yo
- Roll your tongue in a circle: yes
- Ring size: excuse meh

S
- Song: currently listening? d'yer mak'er led zepplin
- Shoe size: 7 1/2
- Salad Dressing: bleu cheese

- Sushi: yummy
- In the shower: I sing
- Strawberries/Blueberries: blueburries

T
- Tattoos: i want 
- Time for bed: eh very late
- Thunderstorms: who CARES
U
- Unpredictable: me? sure.. wow why am I doing this?

V
- Vacation spot(s): caldera, Ny

W
- Weakness: kisses

- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: christina
- Worst feeling: being punched.. or something

- Worst Weather: SNOW, oh how I hate the snow

X
- X-Rays: everytime I go to the dentist
Y
-Year it is now: 2009
-Yellow: coldplay
Z
- Zoo animal: elephant or penguin.

i'll build myself a fire.